I feel unwanted , ugly, lonely. Yes I have a boyfriend a family. But on the inside I hate what I look like, I feel like te worst person , I have had addictions and am a addict to cigerattes but that’s when I feel at peace that time outside make me happy. When I write I’m happy when I make sure I have make up on and my hair done I feel pretty but when I don’t I feel ugly I hate my weight I hate how much I gain I hate it so much I just want it to go away . I hate myself sometimes over stupid reasons
im foreal thinking about going straight..where are all the good gay girls at!!